17 years...

Today is my 17 years I live on earth...
Similar today is my seventeenth birthday~

God wants me to be a good person & serve Him...
In the past 17 years,
15, I found out that God really stands beside me always...never fail to guide me, protect me, leads me to the right path...
And helps me always^^
16, was the best year I ever had!!!
I found out love, warm & sweet love that covers my cold...
I found out true friends,
true friends that care me when I'm injured,
true friends that hug me when I'm cry,
true friends that help me when I'm in trouble,
true friends that giggling together when I'm happy,
I found out who am I,
the real person of me...
there's no longer the pain, but joy^^
& I found out that in spiritual life,
is joy & full of blessing,
full of knowledge, full of humble^^
16 was the best, hope 17 will be better~

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Anyway, I never receive any birthday give from my friends...
(boo...forever alone...)
Wait, I have cake!!!
But wishes in Facebook &  from the mouth of my friends is well enough that make me happy^^
This year I received many birthday blessing,
I can said that 80% fb wishes were from my Catholic & Christian brothers & sister.
( makes me wanna post more about faith...after all, I post something rubbish got less like than I post spiritual~)
Thank for my brother, Jonathan as the first person wished me 'happy birthday' ( sudden hugged almost made me sudden heart attack!!!)
Thank for Ong Kai Xin, as announcer for today as my birthday
(otherwise, I guess the whole friends of my dunno my birthday^^)
Thank for Joo Ning, as the 1st person wished my happy birthday in school^^
Thank for Yee Leng, Juan Juan, Zhi Kuan, & Huey Ling for belajar me eat fried chicken & french fries...
Thank for 5E class, for singing birthday song for me together^^
(1st time received birthday song from large crowds)
& thank you, Martin Jalleh for wishing me 'happy birthday' via fb...
I really appreciate it^^
Last but not least, thank you God as my guidance that guided me safely this past 17 years~

Confirmation ^^

2 weeks passed...

I'm a confirmed Catholic!!!
Official being the disciples of Christ, servant of the Lord.

" I am the handmaid of the Lord, let it done according your word."
- Lk 1:38

God gave the gives & fruits of the holy spirit on the day of confirmation..
now still live in me strong, spiritual & powerful. ( Thank you Lord)

14 July 2013

A day for me to remember
A day that is more important than my birthday
A day I fell down, dropped down, tears filled with sorrow rolling down my cheek
Forgive me Lord, for I'm a sinner
Prepare me to be the body of the church, as the temple of the holy spirit
Prepare me to serve You
& defend the Church with all my mind, body & soul.

I'm dedicated with that.
A ring I wear right now is not I'm engaged with someone,
is engaged with Christ, that I will serve Him till the end of my life,
that reminds me that God-is-with-me forever...
Thank you Jude, my Godfather for praying me, guided me towards the spiritual life, being my sponsor & thanks for the gift^^

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By the way, the World Youth Day 13, Rio just ended^^
I guess the youths who participated in this one holy week will came back & filled with holy spirit.
Just pray that their faith will continue & never goes off forever.
I watched the opening mass for WYD 13, amazing-perfectly-beautifully starting~
Almost like Olympic~
Brazil, beautiful country with majority religion is Roman Catholic.
Everyone in there yelling "Papa Francisco!",
wants to shake hand with Pope Francis,
wants his blessing.
Totally insane I can said that the people in there!!!
But if I'm at this situation,
if Pope Francis is right in front of me,
I will sure do the same things as the people do...
pushing, rushing to the front & wish to receive a blessing from Holy Father.
I really fall in love with Pope Francis,
a great humble person, (carried his own personal case, before blessing requested pray for him & missionary)
a caring person (kiss the children, bless the disability person)
Although Holy Father spoke in Latin & Spanish, that I don't really understand, but the message is meaningful when it translated into English, that I understood.
Makes me wanted to learn Latin & Spanish.
Makes me wanted to be at the next WYD!!!
Next three years, WYD will be held in Krakow, Poland!!!
If God's will, let me go to WYD^^

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Right now, I can't wait for this Saturday catechism party!!!

God bless each one of us~

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confirmation camp, best camp ever~

One week after the Confirmation Camp, I just missed the camp so much...I never felt so happy & joy before, & lasted quite long...

Well I don't want to say so much...
Finally there's a camp that focusing spiritual
( although Gentleman song is played, thank God only twice the facilitators played, otherwise again every camp one song virus.)
& I found who am I, dedicate to be myself...
True, becuz I be myself, my pain is gone...

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The speaker is amazing-fantastic-hilarious-actor, Martin Jalleh^^
Well, Fabian spoke the truth about him, he's really has a give on preaching...
I really salute him...
I hugged him during inner healing, he said to my friends " I only received 3 hugs, so sad...now I need inner healing"
& before he left Dominic villa to my parish, I personally approached to him & thank him...he hugged me
I added him on fb^^

the funniest things he dunno my name!!!
He went back to my parish for parents talks, & he asked Fabian:
' there's a girl who always talked about you...white-frame'
Fabian confused, luckily there's a slide about my family, 
so Fabian showed him the slide, slowly went down, & find who's that person really
MJ spot me...
Fabian told my name to him.

Fabian found me after the parents talks, & complaint me
' Why you said about me during the camp?'
' I just said that you asked a favour to ask him about "he sure still remember me" things, & he remembered, & he even said "oh...your brother". I said no. & I even asked him (MJ) why he remember you, he said: " becuz he is like you, like to talk!"
"Like to talk???" Fabian epic expression...

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I think God knows how much pains I kept inside my heart, although I wore a strong-undefeated face all the time~
I used to follow the crowds, see my friends do-or-don't,
& I'm not happy cuz I choose not to enjoy myself,
I want to be the other person, but the more I did, the more suffering & pain I gained,
& the first day I'm in a sad mood, I can't believe that this camp I waited for so long, turn up a sorrow, alone...
( forever alone )
I questioned myself, who am I really,
I turned to new leaf next day...
I be who I am...

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I talked, I danced in front of crowds ( although I dunno how to dance, seriously~ )
I choose to be brave, I stand up in the crowds and shared my testimony...
I cried and it healed me a lot, and I received hugs and cared~
I felt love and joy...

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Inner healing was the best,
well we need inner healing every time...of course I cried,
so I heading to my Godfather to received first hug from him after inner healing...

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"You have to enjoy this camp becuz this is the last camp for y'all."
No. For me, is just the beginning...
A beginning of confirming myself as a Catholic...
I had a huge dream, a dream to bring back God's people to Him...
Form now on I waiting for the sacred moments of my life, receive the fruits and gifts of the holy spirit, prepare a great mission to God...

28 June - 30 June '13
I will never forget about the great moment of my life...

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